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I am just an actor who forgot his script

24 April, 2007

The last time I was going to write post for my blog, I was going to start saying that sunny days in Glasgow can be quite inspirational. But, actually I didn’t find inspiration to compose a post.

Today, it’s not sunny at all. On the contrary, it’s been raining heavily. Now it is just cloudy. But I don’t care, I am at home. It can pour: I won’t care.

I suppose I am now using my blog to talk to someone as if it were a friend. But I cannot really tell here what’s going on with me… It’s actually a mix with physical and moral unwellness. I may go to the doctor tomorrow.

How long am I still going to be on probation? When can I start enjoying life? When are problems going to stop appearing in my life?

I don’t really miss Spain, but I miss my friends and my family. Here in Glasgow, everybody seems to be very busy. In Spain, my friends would always find a moment for me, would be with me in trying moments. Just the way I do with them. It seems that here the rules are different, or simply, people don’t care enough for me.

What was I expecting, anyway?

<<<Song: Amaral – Sin ti no soy nada>>>

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You can learn how to play the game

1 January, 2007

I have dreamt of you again. I thought the first would be the last. I can’t understand. I hardly ever think of you.

First dream: I see you. I am in a faculty I don’t know. I follow you. We talk. We come back together. I don’t remember what happened. But I knew you were not the man of my life. As before, I have always know you were not the man of my life, but I did never tell you.

Second dream: I call you. I don’t know why, but I call you. You are in Morocco. Again in Morocco. It is a very expensive call. You are talking to a friend. You are not interested in what I say. I put the telephone down. I feel desperate.

Maybe I am dreaming of you because the streets of my old city remind me the moments we spent together.

Once again, I have googled your name. You haven’t updated your blog.

I know you don’t think of me, you never do. But, what can I do? I am alone and feeling lonely for three years. I am sure you have found love in Barcelona. For sure.

I just want to move on. I would never come back to you. But please, don’t come back to me in dreams.

Yes, I just want to move on. What can I do if you are the only synonym for love I know?

But make no mistake, you are not in my heart any longer.

<<<Song: The Beatles – All you need is love>>>