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There are some debts you’ll never pay

21 March, 2007

I try to survive and I don’t know why. Different deaths attack me. Different sadnesses.

Once you think about your own death, about the possibility of dying unexpectedly, you regard life in a different way. But sometimes you forget.

I know I fear death because I live in future: I will do, I will enjoy, I will go, I will kiss, I will be loved…

I want to be irresponsible.

Irresponsible. I want to be able to forget. I want to stop remembering. But once you see the light… Oh, yes, once you see the light, what can you do?

<<<Song: Arcade Fire: Intervention>>>

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You can learn how to play the game

1 January, 2007

I have dreamt of you again. I thought the first would be the last. I can’t understand. I hardly ever think of you.

First dream: I see you. I am in a faculty I don’t know. I follow you. We talk. We come back together. I don’t remember what happened. But I knew you were not the man of my life. As before, I have always know you were not the man of my life, but I did never tell you.

Second dream: I call you. I don’t know why, but I call you. You are in Morocco. Again in Morocco. It is a very expensive call. You are talking to a friend. You are not interested in what I say. I put the telephone down. I feel desperate.

Maybe I am dreaming of you because the streets of my old city remind me the moments we spent together.

Once again, I have googled your name. You haven’t updated your blog.

I know you don’t think of me, you never do. But, what can I do? I am alone and feeling lonely for three years. I am sure you have found love in Barcelona. For sure.

I just want to move on. I would never come back to you. But please, don’t come back to me in dreams.

Yes, I just want to move on. What can I do if you are the only synonym for love I know?

But make no mistake, you are not in my heart any longer.

<<<Song: The Beatles – All you need is love>>>