Archive for the ‘love’ category

About safety…

10 May, 2007

 

Carrie Bradshaw (Sarah Jessica Parker)

 

“Later, I got thinking about safe sex. Odd how only when our physical life is at risk, do we follow certain guidelines to protect ourselves. What about our emotional lives? Wouldn’t it be nice if there was a little pamphlet to warn us what behaviour might be high risk to ourselves or our relationships? Even if you take all the precautions and emotionally try to protect yourself, when you crawl in bed with someone, is sex ever safe?”

Carrie Bradshaw‘s column (Sex and the City)

 

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All of these lines across my face (tell you the story of who I am)

18 February, 2007

It’s one week since I have come back from Northern Ireland. I thought that I would like to tell all the wonders I have seen.

It’s been a break for my mind. But once I came back I started to think again. I cannot stop thinking.

How to deal with my “bachelorhood”? I have desisted. I didn’t want this moment to arrive. But I think that until summer I have to stop thinking about love.

What’s to become of me? My words are dull. My smile is gone. I have run out of ideas.

<<<Song: Brandi Carlile-The story>>>

Love is everything

15 February, 2007

<<<Song: Rosenstolz – Liebe ist alles>>>

Silence II

21 January, 2007

I have lost my brolly, but I have earned many things this evening.

I have been to the Polo Lounge. And I have socialize with some people. I have been invited to someone’s house twice (invitations that I kindly turned down).

I don’t really know what I have learnt. But basically I have apprehended that I will have to wait for long to find / be found by the man of my life (a.k.a. Mr Right).  And I am not sad (so far). Maybe the experience today at the gay scene has enhanced my self-esteem, after feeling forgotten by the whole world in my wee room. I’ll need to sleep on it.

Probably my words have no meaning today. I will put them in order soon.

<<<No song today>>>

It seems farther than ever before (I need you so much closer)

18 January, 2007

Out of ideas

Sometimes it feels like time had stopped, and I am unable to take advantage of the situation. I don’t know what to do. I know I can devote myself to my studies, to keep fit, to read… But, I could do that in Spain too.

 

I need to stop feeling lonely, isolated in this small country. I need someone I can tell what I feel, someone I can kiss. Someone to think about. Now my mind is full of love phrases, full of ideas for which I need you to carry out.

 

I always tend to plan my life having into account that you may suddenly appear in my life. I make sure I can leave everything for you. I can still stay in Glasgow next year if you asked me to. I haven’t prepared my life back in Spain. I am still ready for you.

 

I just don’t know what to do next. I am out of words, out of ideas to find you. I don’t know which street to go to find you. I don’t know if it is day or night where you are now.

 

Tonight I will talk to you in the darkness of my room. I will hold you (the pillow will have to pretend). I will tell you how much I wish you were here until I fall asleep and stop suffering.

 

<<<Song: Death Cab for Cutie – Transatlanticism>>>

Silence

12 January, 2007

Today I took the last subway (we say “subway” in Glasgow, like Americans) from St. George’s Cross. In fact, from Hillhead to Kelvinhall my carriage was empty. I was alone. I tried to invent a metaphor from it, but the journey Hillhead-Kelvinhall takes less than a minute. I forgot to discover that metaphor.

I am sad, for I feel lonely. And I don’t know how to eliminate this loneliness. I don’t really know if finding Mr Right would be the solution.

I have been chatting with a friend who is now in Spain. We have talked about love, life… He is a philosopher. He has made me think in a different way about my current personal situation. He has said something I really need to reflect on:

“I don’t want to need someone to defeat my loneliness; I want to need someone because I love him, not because he will fill my loneliness with his company.”

I leave a link to his blog here (sorry, it’s mostly in Spanish!):

Espacio de Josepdely

 

<<<Song: No song today>>>

Touching the memories

19 December, 2006

Today I am feeling better. I have nothing to do but to try to enjoy myself. I haven’t visited my faculty yet, it’d bring me many memories. But I will go, today or tomorrow. I don’t think I’ll come back in spring. I gotta see the world.

What can I say today? It’s just another day, I didn’t find love. I am not looking for it in Granada, I will come back to Glasgow in January. I don’t want to suffer.

<<<Lisa Germano – Red Thread>>>