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Silence II

21 January, 2007

I have lost my brolly, but I have earned many things this evening.

I have been to the Polo Lounge. And I have socialize with some people. I have been invited to someone’s house twice (invitations that I kindly turned down).

I don’t really know what I have learnt. But basically I have apprehended that I will have to wait for long to find / be found by the man of my life (a.k.a. Mr Right).  And I am not sad (so far). Maybe the experience today at the gay scene has enhanced my self-esteem, after feeling forgotten by the whole world in my wee room. I’ll need to sleep on it.

Probably my words have no meaning today. I will put them in order soon.

<<<No song today>>>


I hang my coat up in the first bar

9 December, 2006

I did it. I went to the scene: Wednesday, Thursday, Friday. My efforts to quit solitude have been futile. In eight days I will come back to Spain for Christmas. I have to face that fact. I just have to survive alone one week. But going back to Spain is challenging. I will see friends I haven’t seen in months. And I am not the same, will they notice?

I feel ridiculous. I am 19 years old and I am alone in a gay pub. Anyway, it’s better to meet people. But it’s ridiculous.

Too old. Too trendy. Doesn’t look at me. Not my type. It’s just difficult

On January I will come back to Glasgow, and I will start again. Knowing what I know. Knowing what I know is just disheartening. What can I do?

Unless a miracle occurs, these eight days are going to be simply negligible.

By the way, I went to Delmonicas and Polo Lounge.

<<<Song: Snow Patrol and Martha Wainwright – Set fire to the third bar>>>