Archive for the ‘Spain’ category

Hold me tight

27 August, 2007

I don’t have time. I am meeting a friend in ten minutes. But I can’t resist. I need to write about my feelings after three months far from Glasgow, in Spain.

I thought I wouldn’t want to write on this blog again.  I thought this would be just a memento from my stay in Glasgow. But I haven’t been able to resist.

I miss the rain!!!

I miss speaking English!!!

I miss hearing “aye”, “wee” and all those lovely Scottish words.

My favourite band is back. This is their new clip:

<<<Song: Marlango – Hold me tight>>>

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Smile! You are in SPAIN

28 May, 2007

When I arrived in Spain last Christmas after having spent three months in Glasgow, I loved this slogan. Now, I am in Spain again.

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I am just an actor who forgot his script

24 April, 2007

The last time I was going to write post for my blog, I was going to start saying that sunny days in Glasgow can be quite inspirational. But, actually I didn’t find inspiration to compose a post.

Today, it’s not sunny at all. On the contrary, it’s been raining heavily. Now it is just cloudy. But I don’t care, I am at home. It can pour: I won’t care.

I suppose I am now using my blog to talk to someone as if it were a friend. But I cannot really tell here what’s going on with me… It’s actually a mix with physical and moral unwellness. I may go to the doctor tomorrow.

How long am I still going to be on probation? When can I start enjoying life? When are problems going to stop appearing in my life?

I don’t really miss Spain, but I miss my friends and my family. Here in Glasgow, everybody seems to be very busy. In Spain, my friends would always find a moment for me, would be with me in trying moments. Just the way I do with them. It seems that here the rules are different, or simply, people don’t care enough for me.

What was I expecting, anyway?

<<<Song: Amaral – Sin ti no soy nada>>>

I have to fly

12 March, 2007

My life (or my mental life) is far too complicated. I don’t have fixed ideas. I try to learn, I try to not to say “I love you” if I am not sure. I don’t say “I like you” to the first person that listens to me.

Sometimes I miss Spain, Southern Spain. Sun, happiness, party, relax… But I love Scotland too.

<<<Song: Bebe & Los Delinqüentes – Después>>>

It seems farther than ever before (I need you so much closer)

18 January, 2007

Out of ideas

Sometimes it feels like time had stopped, and I am unable to take advantage of the situation. I don’t know what to do. I know I can devote myself to my studies, to keep fit, to read… But, I could do that in Spain too.

 

I need to stop feeling lonely, isolated in this small country. I need someone I can tell what I feel, someone I can kiss. Someone to think about. Now my mind is full of love phrases, full of ideas for which I need you to carry out.

 

I always tend to plan my life having into account that you may suddenly appear in my life. I make sure I can leave everything for you. I can still stay in Glasgow next year if you asked me to. I haven’t prepared my life back in Spain. I am still ready for you.

 

I just don’t know what to do next. I am out of words, out of ideas to find you. I don’t know which street to go to find you. I don’t know if it is day or night where you are now.

 

Tonight I will talk to you in the darkness of my room. I will hold you (the pillow will have to pretend). I will tell you how much I wish you were here until I fall asleep and stop suffering.

 

<<<Song: Death Cab for Cutie – Transatlanticism>>>

Silence

12 January, 2007

Today I took the last subway (we say “subway” in Glasgow, like Americans) from St. George’s Cross. In fact, from Hillhead to Kelvinhall my carriage was empty. I was alone. I tried to invent a metaphor from it, but the journey Hillhead-Kelvinhall takes less than a minute. I forgot to discover that metaphor.

I am sad, for I feel lonely. And I don’t know how to eliminate this loneliness. I don’t really know if finding Mr Right would be the solution.

I have been chatting with a friend who is now in Spain. We have talked about love, life… He is a philosopher. He has made me think in a different way about my current personal situation. He has said something I really need to reflect on:

“I don’t want to need someone to defeat my loneliness; I want to need someone because I love him, not because he will fill my loneliness with his company.”

I leave a link to his blog here (sorry, it’s mostly in Spanish!):

Espacio de Josepdely

 

<<<Song: No song today>>>

It’s a different world

27 December, 2006

Nothing is happening in this side of the world. I am just trying to relax and think about my life. My city is degrading. My city is inhabited by scatterbrains. I feel very apathetic. I sleep, and connect to Internet. I listen to music and drink tea I have brought from Scotland. And some shortbread, oh yes!

I don’t have many thing to tell. In Glasgow I will get inspiration.

<<<Song: Martha Wainwright – When the day is too short>>>