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All alone

20 February, 2007

I should be studying. But last night I couldn’t sleep until 4am. I am withering.

I am trying to survive.

What is this all about? What’s going on?

I am just confused, I need an answer.

I need an answer, a look, a smile, a word… but just for me, today I need to feel I am special…

<<<Song: Natalie Merchant – Ophelia>>>

It seems farther than ever before (I need you so much closer)

18 January, 2007

Out of ideas

Sometimes it feels like time had stopped, and I am unable to take advantage of the situation. I don’t know what to do. I know I can devote myself to my studies, to keep fit, to read… But, I could do that in Spain too.

 

I need to stop feeling lonely, isolated in this small country. I need someone I can tell what I feel, someone I can kiss. Someone to think about. Now my mind is full of love phrases, full of ideas for which I need you to carry out.

 

I always tend to plan my life having into account that you may suddenly appear in my life. I make sure I can leave everything for you. I can still stay in Glasgow next year if you asked me to. I haven’t prepared my life back in Spain. I am still ready for you.

 

I just don’t know what to do next. I am out of words, out of ideas to find you. I don’t know which street to go to find you. I don’t know if it is day or night where you are now.

 

Tonight I will talk to you in the darkness of my room. I will hold you (the pillow will have to pretend). I will tell you how much I wish you were here until I fall asleep and stop suffering.

 

<<<Song: Death Cab for Cutie – Transatlanticism>>>