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Silence III

23 February, 2007

I am totally lost. I don’t know when to sleep. I don’t know who to talk to if I need to tell my secrets. I don’t know where to turn…

It’s easy to say “they lose out if they don’t want to be with you…”

I am hungry and I have just eaten. I am sleepy and I don’t remember when I last had a sleep. I have two gray hair. I don’t want to study but it’s all I have.

Yes, I am totally lost and there’s no one to help me.

I have a map, but it is difficult to follow.

I am angry with the world…

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Forget what we’re told before we get too old

6 December, 2006

Wednesday afternoon. Routine? That’s up to me.

My blog is unsuccessful. I knew it would happen. I haven’t told my friends about it. Who will read me if Technorati couldn’t care less about my blog? Well, I write this blog as a diary. So, if you find it, be grateful… you’ll be reading a secret diary. Not many people will have such a chance.

My life is changing very quickly. One day I think something, the following day I may think the contrary. My life in Glasgow is not bad at all. It could be better, of course. But I don’t regret about coming to study here. I just think I need time to meet that interesting people I am waiting for. After three months I still believe I will find interesting people. The problem is not the fact that there are no interesting people (indeed, there are a lot!), it is that I don’t know if they will want me as a friend.

I feel I haven’t got enough time to cope with this city and get the best from it. What if I find love at the end of my stay? Well, I told a friend that I would remain in Glasgow for love, and I am keeping it.

This evening I have nothing to do. Well, I could study… but that can wait. I have all Christmas to do it, as I will probably be bored in my house in Spain. I should go to a gay pub and try to meet some people. I don’t really like gay pubs because generally people in those places are quite superficial, but you can always meet someone who is worth it.

I have no one to go with, but, anyway, it’s something I have to do on my own if I really want to meet someone.

Well, we’ll see.

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