Archive for the ‘survive’ category

There are some debts you’ll never pay

21 March, 2007

I try to survive and I don’t know why. Different deaths attack me. Different sadnesses.

Once you think about your own death, about the possibility of dying unexpectedly, you regard life in a different way. But sometimes you forget.

I know I fear death because I live in future: I will do, I will enjoy, I will go, I will kiss, I will be loved…

I want to be irresponsible.

Irresponsible. I want to be able to forget. I want to stop remembering. But once you see the light… Oh, yes, once you see the light, what can you do?

<<<Song: Arcade Fire: Intervention>>>

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All alone

20 February, 2007

I should be studying. But last night I couldn’t sleep until 4am. I am withering.

I am trying to survive.

What is this all about? What’s going on?

I am just confused, I need an answer.

I need an answer, a look, a smile, a word… but just for me, today I need to feel I am special…

<<<Song: Natalie Merchant – Ophelia>>>